now…i mean NOW!!!

June 25th, 2006
someone told me, "a heart capable of great love is capable of great hurt…" well…basically, that’s it!!! pain comes side by side with love and we can’t do anything about it. when people say "i love you" we won’t know the difference anymore, whether they mean it or they don’t..just saying it for the heck of saying!!!
i think that is and will never change..there will always be people who will not care of how others feel. they lie, they cheat…they do everthing for the benefit of themselves even if they knew that some will cry and get hurt..
but the irony of things is, those who get hurt are the ones who love best..the ones who give it all, sacrifice everything. aren’t their efforts enough? is it always lacking? why does it seem that even if we try to make other people happy by sacrificing our own happiness, still it is not appreciated? WHY?
sometimes, i don’t understand it at all…it is so complex..i can’t fully comprehend the rules of LOVE, if ever it has rules..but, basically, love has two sides..the brighter side of love faces you at the least expected time, and almost at the same moment, its darker side faces you when you are off guard…

a story of doubt

June 24th, 2006
hi!! here i am again..i don’t know why i feel this way…all of a sudden so sure of myself and my decisions, but then suddenly i change..i don’t know why i always end up this way…
ambot!!!! this post is going nowhere..i don’t even know where i should go…i am so confuse with everything!!!!!