s stands for strength!!

the very big adjustment for me is dividing my time three times..one for my studies, work and for cliff..of course as you may have all known, we broke up..but (yeah..there’s always a but!!) we decided to give it all a second chance…after all, everything and everyone deserves a second chance..

so here i am once again trying to manage every thing right..i can’t afford to make another mistake this time because it would be like going back to zero…

a letter for love..

dear love,

right now, i’m very much angry with you!! why do you keep on doing this to me? am i not that good enough to deserve you? i did my best to keep you alive in both his heart and mine, but why did you leave his heart this early? why? is this suppose to be the next sign for me to stop believing in you?

i did not cheat on him! why is he accusing me of something that i haven’t done? i wasn’t with someone else..my gosh i’m too busy with work/training and studies to fool around, and i love him so much to commit such grave accusation! i’d buy the whole "i’m sorry but i fell out of love" thing compared to this. it hurts to end what seems to be a beautiful relationship for me this way. i am hurt..

what else is there to say? well, to him i’d say; GO TO HELL! and take that someone who sent you that text message with you!! if you don’t trust me, then you don’t know me well enough..

now love, am i ready to give up on you? not to feel you? to throw you out of my stupid, weak heart?

when i try to feel you, it hurts!

_maRa_