something awaits…

the problem about distance is that many perceive it as an unbeatable foe; especially us lovers. they even say that it can ruin a relationship without us realizing it.

well, my boyfriend and i are currently experiencing a near to long distance relationship since he has to go home to leyte because of personal-family-financial problems and maybe it would take some time for us to see each other again.

but i don’t consider distance as a problem. why? because i trust him. trust- cliche really, but what else is there to consider? without trust, love would be void. i’m not saying that i like the fact that he will soon leave me physically, i am suffering from the idea too. still, i can’t do anything about it since i’m not working yet, i too, cannot support myself. so we still have to obey what our parents want for now.

i am going to do everything so that it will be easy for us. communication is one thing. with cell phones and the internet, that won’t be a problem. the major problem is funds, money. but i know there is a solution for everything.

i am going to take care of this relationship. cliff nygel is very important to me.

the changes..

some changes i see around me hurts me; some makes me happy; others are not quite what i’ve expected. i do not see any reason why this one word affects me so much, still, it does.

i was hoping that i’d be immune to these. that i’d be the one person in the whole world exempted to these. especially when the changes i see around me only hurts me. hahai.. *double sigh*

with all these complains i have, i know that deep inside i will not fall. i will not falter. i will do anything to deal with these. i will be strong.

just like  bella when she became a vampire. she was stronger than everyone. than everything. i really admired her in the book breaking dawn. though i hated her in new moon.

it’s amazing how i can insert fiction to my problems in reality.

i guess that how it usually goes for me. i find comfort in things that i know the ending. if only i can see what’s coming for me. i would never be this afraid.