so full of emotions right now..

a friend of my sister just broke up with her boyfriend and since we’ve also known each other because of the times that she stays in our house, she has also became my friend. and i realized that i felt the same sadness and anger that she’s feeling right now. not that my boyfriend and i broke up, it’s just the fact that we are not together. it’s been months now that we haven’t seen each other and all that we have for communication are the internet and cellular phone.

before, i don’t really have a problem with that, but as the days pass by, i’ve been missing him a lot. to make it a point, i can’t even seem to get well from cough and cold because i’ve been missing him. no connection, right? but i seem to have a knack of making a connection out of two different things which can make my life even more complicated.

every night i sleep with a huge sigh; so many questions; so much doubt. it’s not that i don’t trust him and this relationship that we have. i just don’t trust myself when it comes to feeling this depress because i tend to do things which can go out of hand. for example, i tend to become lazy with school work..i even stopped making my thesis which can really get me into trouble. problem is i just can’t find my inspiration when he’s not around.

i just hope he knows that.