it’s complicated..
i have this theory..well it isn’t actually my theory..but still it is a theory..haha (dammit..what am i saying?!?)..anyway, i think the fewer the words you say to someone the more painful it is for you to accept those words..whaaattt??
i don’t know what i’m talking about..it’s just that i can’t explain how i’m feeling right now..i know i’ve moved on but the pain and bitterness is still so fresh inside..naan says that i need someone to help me forget the pain from the past but i can’t quite grasp the idea of using someone to forget another person..it seemed unfair..it happened to me before..but i broke up with the guy since i was not yet over my ex, in doing so, i hurt him..and i’m not going to make the same mistake again this time..i was hurt..so i’m just going to deal with it alone..
i guess the advantage of being alone is that you cannot hurt others..but the disadvantage is the fact that you are alone..
*sigh*
Love is a bittersweet feeling.. | Comment (0)i carry your heart..
“i carry your heart..i carry it in my heart..”
a poem by ee cummings..i came across this poem in the movie in her shoes..reading this poem gives me courage and assurance that i will always have somebody who will be there for me no matter what..
i carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me i carry it in my heart
i am never without it, anywhere you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
i fear
no fate for you are my fate, my sweet, i want
no world, for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or the mind can hide
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart i carry it in my heart
Poems | Comment (0)Where Are You?
[J. Roman]
I know you out there baby
So where?
There’s someone out there for me…
I know she’s waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?
This life long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh, how does she cry,
What’s the color of her eyes,
Does she even realize I’m here?….
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she?
Who is she?
Who’s gonna complete my world?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she?
Who is she?
Who’s gonna complete my world?
La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..
[Soluna]
I’m starin out at the sky…
Prayin’ that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams?
Yeah…
I’d wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry,
What’s the color of his eyes,
Does he even realize I’m here?….
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he?
Who is he?
Who’s gonna take me so high?
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he?
Who is he?
Who’s gonna take me so high?
La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..
[J. Roman]
Where are you…?
There’s someone out there for me…
[Soluna]
There’s someone out there for me…
[J. Roman]
I know she’s waiting so patiently..
[Soluna]
So patient…
[J. Roman]
Can you tell me her name?
[Soluna]
Can you tell me his name?
[J. Roman]
This life long search is gonna drive me insane
[Soluna]
How does he laugh, how does he cry,
What’s the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I’m here?….
[J. Roman]
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she?
Who is she?
Who’s gonna complete my world?
[Soluna]
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he?
Who is he?
Who’s gonna take me so high?
[Together]
La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..
[J. Roman]
(Yeah…I know you’re out there…)
[Together]
La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..
[J. Roman]
Where are you?
I’ma look all over the world baby
Cuz I know you’re out there
I know it might sound crazy…
But I love you
La la la la la la la..
White Horse
Say your sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to.
As I pace back and forth
All this time cause
I honestly believed in you.
Holdin’ on
The days drag on
Stupid girl I should have known, I should have known.
That I’m not a princess.
This ain’t a fairytale.
I’m not the one you sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell.
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now it’s to late for you and your white horse to come around.
Maybe I was nave, got lost in your eyes,
and never really had a chance.
my mistake, I didn’t know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings, well now I know…
That I’m not a princess.
This ain’t a fairytale.
I’m not the one you sweep off her feet,
lead her up the stairwell.
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your white horse to come around.
And there you are on your knees.
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me.
Just like I always wanted but, I’m so sorry.
Cause I’m not your princess.
This ain’t a fairytale.
I’m gonna find someone some day, who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world.
That was a small town, there in my rearview mirror disappearing now.
And it’s too late for you and your white horse…
Its too late for you and your white horse to
catch me now.
Oh, Oh,Oh,
Try and catch me now ohh
Its too late
To catch me now
A Love Story
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I’m standing there
On a balcony of summer air
See the lights,
See the party the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know
That you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go, and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quite cause we’re dead if they know
So close your eyes
Let’s keep this down for a little while
Cause you were romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from juliet
But you were everything to me
And I was begging you please don’t go and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes
Romeo save me, then try to tell me how it is
This love is difficult, but it’s real,
Don’t be afraid
We’ll Make it out of looseness
It’s a love story baby just say yes, oh,
I got time to waiting
Wondering if you would ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts to town I said
Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He fells to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said
Marry me juliet you’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all the reason for
I talk to your dad go pick out a white dress
It’s a love story baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
im fine..
“i’m fine” are the words that are normally used by people who thinks that they feel alright. in the series grey’s anatomy, these words are used to hide the casts true emotions about things. i envy them because it is so easy for them to hide what they feel.
i do want to be like those people. i want not to make a big deal out of my feelings because some of them hurts me, confuses me and most of all it paralyzes me.
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