out of words 2.

i made that poem when i was, i think in 3rd year high school. haha! i never thought that it would someday apply to me.

now, i’m really making this blog as my diary. i’m not so sure if it’s a good idea though, since it’s very public and i really can’t be discreet about my feelings. still i’ll try my very best not to uhhmm..put so much clues into my posts..hehe.. ^^,

i’m just glad that i found my way back to writing. it makes me feel better. there’s just so many things that i want to say as of this moment; things that i want to say particularly to him…but i’m afraid i can’t just say it..the problem with me is that i am very impulsive; a trait i have that often leads me into trouble..and it often leads me straight to a broken a heart.

hhmm..sometimes i often get confuse..i tend to fight for what i feel; i express it; i am being true to myself, but, i get hurt in the process..what have i done wrong? is it wrong if i confess my feelings to someone? that’s being true to yourself right? is it impulsiveness (if there is such a word! LoL!)??? i think not..i mean, i live in the 21st century and all men and women are created equal right?

ohhh god…what am i saying?!?! let’s end this..but it’s not nonsense..haha..it’s something..i can’t put words into this something..it’s just that, it’s something..