sick but not sick?

yesterday i wasn’t able to post something on my blog because there was no internet connection..so i might as well write this before i go to work today coz the connection’s up and running and i don’t want to forget the details that are still so fresh in my head..

i was not feeling well yesterday, i had a fever..i was not my usual self at the start of my shift because i was very quiet..i wasn’t talking..at all..haha!!

during our first fifteen minute break, we went to the pantry and stayed there for awhile..i waited for chai and gel to finish eating when suddenly a very familiar face- so familiar to my heart- appeared at the door…he said “hi! muzta nmn mo?” he went inside and chatted with our group for 5-10 minutes more or less. he told me that the software that he borrowed from me could not be installed to his computer and i told him that i’ll borrow another installer from a friend.

we asked about berlitz results and he said as much as he would want us to know, he cannot disclose it to us because that’s the rule..and then he told us that he has a class..and then he said goodbye..and went..haha

and then baaamm!! i wasn’t sick anymore..i was always smiling (like a crazy-love sick teenager!). sometimes i really annoy myself when it comes to situations like these because i act so inappropriately..i don’t know why, but i act like a teenager, which i am not anymore..

it’s just that i can’t help it! when i’m happy, i guess it comes out naturally in my case..i’m just so happy..an ordinary day turned out to be a perfect day! do you ever get this feeling that somehow you know you’re day is complete because of the fact that you know you’re working with someone that you like (so majorly like!) in the same building or company, but it was made more complete (if there is such a term) because you actually saw him and talked to him without you expecting to do so!! that’s how i felt yesterday!! my day was so soooo overwhelmingly extraordinary because of one short encounter!!

i told myself that i should not go deeper with these feelings i have for him but i don’t know how to..i don’t even want to think about how he would react if he’ll know..i don’t want to picture myself not being friends with him..i don’t want to see the day that we’ll be avoiding each other..