heartbeat

the nicest thing that could ever happen to me is to be with him..as simple as that..just to be with him..it doesn’t really matter if he knew that i harbor feelings for him, as long as i can see him before the day ends, then i’ll really be happy..even if he has a girlfriend or whatever!

just tonight he was with us..i was expecting that my heart will behave, but she did not..i was in the comfort room when they arrived; i knew they were there because i heard the sound of his voice..i knew then that when i get out of the comfort room, my day would be complete..only then have i realized that my feelings for him were not the same as before..i didn’t have the chance to review and re-assess my feelings..i thought that after yesterday night, when ivy and mitch, i and the others went out- drank a little and sang-along with the videoke; my feelings for him will somehow, lessen..but after tonight, i realized that the intensity of my emotions were still there and was quickly growing..

maybe because i seldom see him, or maybe because there’s something in him that draws me near to him..it’s just that i know for a fact that i feel this way for him..it’s like my heart beats for him, or he’s one of the reasons why it still beats..

love has given me a hard time..i can’t figure out why love seems to enjoy making fun of me..maybe these are strong words to say, but it sure does feel so much like it..