shit happens..

they say:

“smart people usually have stupid hearts..”

i say:

“with the way my stupid heart is going, i must be a freakin’ genius!”

lately “shit happens” is my favorite line..it totally describes how i feel..goodness..am i in such a mess?! haha! weird..i don’t like this feeling..whoever invented the words falling in love anyway?!

rose, abe and my mom are watching when i met you..haha! LOL! i’m fond of watching love stories before, but lately i don’t want to.. i don’t want to be reminded of love and the likes..hehe..joke..T_T

anyway, i have been in a tremendous “moving on” situation right now that i do not know the feeling of how it is exactly to move on..i don’t even have the slightest clue if i already moved on..if i did, then i should have the feeling of satisfaction right?

then again, it would come to a point wherein i can actually say that i have totally forgotten everything but still i can’t find it in my heart to be happy..is it my intentions to deny myself the happiness that i tried so hard to find? am i this complicated woman who doesn’t know how she feels or tries so hard figure out what she feels that she tends to complicated things??

i know exactly how i feel..i know exactly what and who i want..but it’s getting more and more complicated for me because of the fact that i know exactly those..

p.s: my eyes hurt..and i don’t know why..my heart also hurts..haha..