unsolicited emotions

there are times that i just simply find myself worrying about feelings that shouldn’t be considered as a big deal after all..sometimes i find myself so immature when i tend to blame others that i am alone..truth is i just refuse to see that maybe the person responsible for all this is me..

i just came from work and i’m not feeling sleepy..i am just so hungry..i can’t understand why though since i ate during my lunch and my breaks..my appetite is increasing by the minute but my weight is not..i don’t like that..haha..

uhhm..i think my emotions are unstable..one minute i am happy, the next minute i’m sad..i can easily find reasons to change my mood and how i feel so easily..it’s a miracle that i am getting by..i just don’t wanna feel this lonely anymore..having a boyfriend is not the solution, i know..it’s more than that..it’s actually having someone who can laugh with me, who’ll be with me when i need them most, who’s gonna uplift me, who’s gonna inspire me..who’ll be the reason that i actually feel like myself again..

(currently, i’m still in search of my old self..)