sinking in..

the fact that i can’t have him is slowly sinking in..this big world that i’m currently in right now is so much more different from the worlds that i’ve been in- different from college, high school and way different from my younger days..i’ve experienced a lot of pain and, well, heartaches that would seem so minor compared to what i’m feeling right now..if this blog could just speak, then maybe it would complain about all my rantings that would seem meaningless for the human kind..

but then, on second thought, is love really meaningless? huh! oh no it’s not..especially when you talk about it with me..i guess most people just don’t seem to care too much about it..but love is an issue for someone as overly sensitive and emotional as me! haha! i make myself sound as if i am unstable..hehe..it’s not that..it’s just that i give value to love that much..i even had a debate earlier with my grandmother about it..

a’ryt..so i’ll stop myself..that’s it! there’s really no issue about this..it’s just that for nth time i’m completely and majorly in love with someone who has great power to break my heart just by ignoring me..and gad, i hate being ignored..the more he ignores me, the more i keep pestering him and i hate it when i do that..that is just so immature of me..i’ve learned the virtue of acceptance during my last relationship, but why does it seem that i mess myself up with this guy..

why do i have the habit of falling in love with the wrong person? i always ask myself this question..

oh well..i guess that’s why it’s called falling..it hurts every time you touch the ground..